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I don't post fan fiction here anymore, but you can still find links to all of my Harry Potter, X-Men, and 30 Seconds to Mars fan fiction below. Also, the one and only Dark Tower fic I ever wrote. I post mostly about my life on here when I get the urge to and yeah, I'm pretty nuts and things are always complicated, but that's everybody, right? So whether or not that's interesting is something that's pretty much up in the air.

For fic only, go to demon_deception - A writing journal I share with a friend. For my own fandom related journal, go to lustmordred. If you don't want to read about my boring RL shit, then one of these would probably be better.

Below is a list of all the fan fiction posted here when fan fiction was still posted here.

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Hey guys.

So there's this blog I watch sometimes because I think the person writing it is sometimes really brilliant--mostly as a writer--and apparently she/he has a chance to do something great with themselves if they win this pitiful little competition/awards thing for Best Blogger to Follow. Anyway, I've quoted their work at the start of fic before and written several stories inspired by it. And I know this probably doesn't mean jack shit to anyone--hell, it hardly matters that much to me--but I figure it probably matters to them and it takes like 2 seconds. So do me a big favor, please, and go over here: http://mashable.com/owa/votes/category/31?c=31 and vote for pleasefindthis.blogspot.com

PLEASE?!

Thank you.

And yanno, I guess you could actually read some of the blog too, but it's not necessary. Heh.

Title: Forgive This Darkness
Fandom: Supernatural
Pairing: John/Sam
Rated: PG-13
Warnings: Incestuous overtones, language, pedophilia (Sam is 16)
Word Count: 4,472 (this part)
Notes: This is a WIP. Sam/Dean stuff will creep in a bit later, also. And the rating on this is going up as it progresses. Way up.
Summary: When Sam was sixteen, he was bitten by a rattlesnake and everything changed. If John had to pick a moment where it happened, where everything that went wrong between them got its start; that would be it.

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Title: A Little Dream
Pairing: Jareth/Sarah
Rated: PG (maybe)
Notes: Written for a prompt in comment_fic. Not beta edited, sorry. Also, it's been a few years since I wrote in this fandom, so if I fucked it up, I apologize.
Summary: Sarah never really ever escaped the maze.

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Title: There Goes the World
Pairing: Sam/Dean
Rated: NC-17
Word Count: 5,000
Warnings: Apocalypse fic, language, angst, incest
Disclaimer: Don't own the characters, just the words.
Notes: Beta edited by judas_denied. Story inspired by In the Middle by Theory of a Deadman, which I have been listening to on repeat a lot lately *ahem* Yes, I am pathetic. I'm okay with that.
Summary: Sam isn't invited to this new Paradise the angels are building, and Dean isn't going without him.

The distant rumble of crumbling stone and the hum of two million angel voices vibrated in the floor and the walls, making the bed tremble and the glass of water on the nightstand shake. Somewhere out there, God was throwing sinners into the fiery pit to set the foundation of Paradise.

Title: Deep Six and Counting
Fandom: Supernatural
Pairing: Sam/Castiel
Rated: PG-13
Word Count: 1,100
Warnings: Um… none, really. Except maybe blood drinking.
Summary: Castiel’s been down in the pit a long time. Now he has company.

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Title: Under Covenant of Working Grace
Fandom: Supernatural
Rated: PG-13 (Gen)
Pairing(s): None, only subtext
Characters: Sam, Castiel, Chuck, Dean, Bobby
Warnings: character death (haunting), language, mentions of violence
Word Count: 5,963
Disclaimer: Characters and such are not mine, only the words.

Sam can leave Dean’s stuff in his room and go in there sometimes to open the windows, telling Bobby he’s airing it out and when Bobby asks for who, he’ll say for Dean. That’s okay. Just like the paper in the locks is okay. It just is.

Title: Backwards Sometimes
Fandom: Supernatural
Pairing: Sam/Dean
Rated: NC-17
Warnings: Incest, rough sex, dead babies, angst, language and spoilers for S4.
Word Count: 17,600
Notes: The quote is from a blog (I don’t know who the author is) called I Wrote This For You. It was going to be a short fic, one in a series of them I was planning to write based on this author’s stuff. But, like a baby monster, it grew. I still may write other ones, though. I’m pretty pleased with how this one turned out.

I always thought that I was sick and you were the cure. But everyone gets things backwards sometimes.

Title: Every Time You Hurt
Fandom: Supernatural
Pairing: Sam/Dean
Rated: NC-17
Disclaimer: Yes.
Word Count: 5,385
Warnings: PWP, S&M, blood fetish (?), knife-play, blood-play
Summary: Sam’s sick with demon blood withdrawal and Dean thinks of a way to help him. At least it starts that way.


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I xposted this but I can't fucking believe I forgot to post it to my own journal. Jesus. Anyway, this is rather short and there's not a single hint of sex anywhere to be found, so surprise. But I still flatter myself enough to think it's good and worth reading, so there ya are.

Title: The Only Way To Get There (Is To Go Straight Down)
Fandom: Supernatural
Pairing: Sam/Dean
Rated: PG-13
Warnings: AU (as of last season), hints of incest, a few naughty words.
Word Count: 1,800
Disclaimer: Do not own, blah, blah, blah…
Summary: Sam is awakened by demons in the middle of the night. They’re excited about a certain visitor.

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Title: This Bewildering House
Fandom: Supernatural
Pairing: Sam/Dean
Rated: NC-17
Warnings: incest, attempted suicide, demonic possession
Disclaimer: Obviously, I do not own the characters. Except the Devil. That one's mine.
Notes: I had a lot of fun writing this. It amused me so much that I was laughing as I was writing sometimes. I hope that you enjoy it too when you read it. If not, well I must have a more twisted sense of humor than I thought, but eh. So it goes.

When the Devil first started talking to him, Sam had thought it was strange that he had to ask Sam questions and didn’t just pluck the answers from his mind. But after a while he’d figured out that for some reason, it didn’t seem to work like that. Satan could set up housekeeping all he wanted, but it looked like the doors to all of the closets where Sam kept his precious secrets had locks on them. Thank God—or whoever—for small mercies.

Title: A Bleak Understanding in Reverse
Pairing: Sam/Dean
Rated: NC-17
Warning(s): Incest, language, character death
Notes: Wrote this in a little less than a week, but I think it turned out well./ Beta edited by cerberus_sky.
Summary: It was strange to think that life without monsters could still kill them...

It started with birdsong. Sam was taking a shower and he heard it in the running water. He stood there listening to it until the water had run cold and Dean started banging on the bathroom door. It was pretty music, it reminded him of some oriental story he'd read as a kid about a king and a nightingale. Except the nightingales were in the spray, piercing his skin with their beaks, sliding like hot needles down his back. Once he heard them it was like that gave them power and he could feel them. Their feathers slipping down his spine like fans caressing his bones. The beat of their wings upset the beat of his heart and confused his blood. Every cell in his body was an immaculate crystal.

Hey, y'all, just have a few minutes on line and thought I should probably share this with anyone who might be interested.

superstitiousme read Once as Soft as Water and made an iPod fic out of it and you can go get it here. It's pretty cool.

Title: Once as Soft as Water
Fandom: Supernatural
Pairing: Sam/Dean
Rated: NC-17
Warnings: Slash, incest

He remembers weighing it in his mind, which would give out first, Dean or his beloved Impala. Used to be Sam would bet every penny he had and his soul too on Dean outliving that damn car. He was always too fucking mean to die easy. He's not so sure now and it scares the hell out of him.

Did this for the Brothers on a Motel Bed meme. And I totally fail at being concise, but fuck it, I knew that already.

Rated: NC-17
Fandom: Supernatural
Pairing: Sam/Dean
Warnings: S&M with mentions of bloodplay.

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Title: Through a Glass Darkly
Fandom: Supernatural
Pairing: Sam/Dean
Rated: NC-17 (if not higher)
Warnings: Attempted suicide, bestiality, blasphemy, bondage, D/s, dark themes, dead characters that don’t stay that way, Evil Sam, H/C, insanity, language, S&M, torture, violence
A/N: The dog, Harvey, is named after the dog by the same name accused of driving David Berkowitz insane./ Banner made for me by judas_denied.

He wonders that love so wretched can still, after all, be love. Even when it’s not the monster under his bed he’s afraid of; it’s the one in it.

Title: Strange Days
Fandom: 30 Seconds to Mars
Pairing: Shannon/Jared
Rated: NC-17
Warnings: Self mutilation, mental illness, suicidal tendencies, graphic imagery that some may find disturbing (or arousing, depending on how you're bent)

Good morning, Don't cop out...

Title: Ashes of Poisonous Slumber
Fandom: 30 Seconds to Mars
Pairing: Shannon/Jared
Rated: R
Warnings: Self mutilation, mental illness
Disclaimer: Yeah, I know they’re not doing it. This made baby Jesus sad for a little while, but he got over it.

A child in a clown costume gave Jared an apple for Halloween one year.

Title: Would You Offer Your Throat to the Wolf?
Fandom: 30 Seconds to Mars
Pairing: Tim/Jared
Rated: NC-17
Warnings: Um... sex(?)
Notes: Title inspired by the first line of the song "You Took The Words Right Out Of My Mouth" by Meatloaf. Quote is #415 at the_dark_garden. Title banner made for me by judas_denied, and it is made of fucking awesome ♥

Jared doesn’t know that sometimes Tim watches him sleep.

Authors: lucilla_darkate with judas_denied
Title: Beneath the Skin of the Rose Pt. III
Fandom: 30 Seconds to Mars (kind of)/ Other RPS
Pairing: Jared Leto/Rob Thomas
Rated: NC-17
Warnings: AU, Violence, Language. Warnings will go up/be modified with each part.
Disclaimer: I know they're not actually doing it. I just think it would be hot if they did.
Notes: This is based on the fairytale Beauty and the Beast and its many incarnations./ JD did the graphics, which I love.


Scanning the page, a word caught his eyes and Shannon said, “Hmm.” as he studied the spell. It was a tiny thing, a mere five letters and nothing more. No spell that short was ever difficult, so Shannon deemed it okay and turned away from the page, looking for something to try it on. Not finding anything he felt was altogether suitable, he just threw both of his arms out to the side as he yelled, “SPRIT!”